Monday 23 November 2009

winter chocolate spice

Oh my, today has been quite a heavy day. I could go to sleep right away. Maybe I will?

First: here are some pictures of the decadent delicious winter chocolate spice cupcakes I made yesterday. Chocolate cupcakes with spices and chunks of spicy chocolate, with chocolate icing and a piece of spicy chocolate on top. Yum!

Listening to: Boney by Jack Shit from the album Rogues Gallery (and on my playlist) on Spotify.

Sunday 22 November 2009

cake day cake

Yeah, here's some pics of the cupckes I brought to work on friday - not good pics I'm afraid, but the cupcakes where very good.

They're made with strawberries and dark chocolate chips. Delicious and popular. I love cupcakes! I love making them and eating them and giving them to people who feed my ego by liking them too.

Listening to: My chill playlist on Spotify.

Friday 20 November 2009

In three minutes the last work hour of this week begins. One hour and three minutes untill freedom and maybe some wine. And dinner I guess. Good stuff! I had the sugar buzz of a lifetime all morning and didn't come down untill after lunch when reality caught up with me... Something happens on monday that I'm really not looking forward to.

But in the meantime I'm yarnsurfing! (Yes I really should be working I know but my brain... it just wants to think about knittitng...) Right now I'm knitting a hat for someone special but I really want to make something like the big red... scarf? Blanket? That I found on the start page of BodhiYarn. (Have a look at the recycled silks!)

I also have lot's of other ideas spinning around in my head, and a lot of requests as well. Mom, friends, friends of friends ask me to knit things for them. But that someone special I mentioned is on the top of my list, and I think I'm on second myself. I have enough yarn and projects to last untill christmas and then I hope I have a sewing machine!

Oh knitting... It's the best. If only World of Warcraft was more boring!

Also the best: Cupcakes. So easypeasy and so much fun! It's like... I could make them every day just for the fun of it! Icing and sprinkles and yummy fillings and so much niceness. I made a batch last night for cake friday (I finally felt ready to start this fabulous tradition here at my new job) wich was very appreciated! I think I might even upload a few pics and recipe if you are all nice and well behaved. Mmmmm... Strawberries and dark chocolate...

Well well, back to work.

Thursday 19 November 2009

swing it

So I've got mood swings now. Don't really know why, but I've got reasons to be happy and reasons to be sad. When I'm happy everything is good and nice and when I'm sad I feel all alone and very very small.

I really hate feeling so sad. But there's too much for just one Cookie to carry all alone. I feel like I'm trapped in a maze. Alone and confused in the dark.

Listening to: Babylon Zoo - Spaceman (What?)

EDIT - Why is blogger so annoying when it comes to fontsizes and stuff?

Wednesday 18 November 2009

hey now

Well this just won't do now will it? No it won't. I have been writing about lot's of different things in this blog but now I'm not writing anything at all. This is because I don't do much mostly. And what I do isn't very interesting.

But I miss blogging and I have so much interesting thoughts in my head now!

So I'll start sharing some inspirations and ideas instead of stories from my life. I have lots of ideas but not so much life. Haha. (Okay to be honest I'm playing a lot of world of warcraft. I'm level 27!)

I have done something though, on sunday! I went to dinner at my grandparents and it was so great! My uncle and aunt and cousins where there and we had really good chicken casserole and it was lovely meeting them all! I was very happy!

I'm happy otherwise too.

Soon I'll start sharing all my crafty projects, baking, knitting and so on. And pictures. And ideas and dreams and plans and inspirations. Now I guess I have to get back to work.

Oh first, my old friend Tom is in town!! It's gonna be great to see him! Oh and last night I cut my hair again. Now it's just like it was this spring. I'll try to get a picture.

Tuesday 10 November 2009

deep breaths

My eyes are hurting and breathing is difficult cause my nose is stuffy and I'm so so tired... And I'm afraid and confused and I feel like a small peice of dirt sometimes.

But mostly I'm happy and I when I fall asleep at night I think about this one beautiful thing; he loves me.

Listening to: not Spotify as it is not functioning at work anymore. Oh my brain. It is also not very much functioning.

Monday 9 November 2009

life goes on

I've been having the most annoying cold ever. It just wont go away. I feel better now but I'm still sneezing and I have a sore nose from blowing it too much.

Working, or resting, or making muffins, or cooking, or playing WoW, or watching movies, or knitting has been taking up my time.

Also: Love.

Tuesday 13 October 2009

oh my

Uhm, what? Oh! Hi! I didn't forget you, I promise, I just had to much going on to stop and tell you about it.

So uhm yeah... I've been in Sweden for two and a half weeks now! And I love it. I love it so much. I miss English Market and Maria and Eva House and Hannah and... Vibes and Scribes and... Cork Coffee Roasters maybe... Not so much more though.

I don't have much to tell about the last couple of weeks though, even if I've been really busy. Been moving in to a new tiny apartment with a view over the whole world. Been hanging out with some cool people (of wich two are very short). Been working at my new job! I like it!

Been very happy. Wish I could tell you more.

Listening to: Gwen Stefani on Spotify

Wednesday 23 September 2009

the end of an era

Two more days. In 48 hours I'm getting off the plane in London.

Today Maria is flying from Sweden to New York.

I was reading old, unsent emails. It was like looking at a very old picture, or seeing something through water, I remember it of course but it's not real anymore. It's not my life anymore. My life used to be pretty crappy but now it's awesome. It's funny really, how you can feel so bad and so good about the same things, or the same people.

I know I have made the right choice.

Friday 18 September 2009

heavy happiness

I really want to write something about what it feels like leaving Cork after two years, leaving my job, starting a new life in a city I can hardly remember, leaving my friends, returning to my old friends, but I cant think of any way to express these feelings.

I want to write about the very beautiful necklace Maria gave me, and the beautiful card that almost made me cry, or how strange it feels that not only do I not live with Maria anymore, I'll also be living in a totally different country.

And it feels so good to leave and it feels so strange and life is thrown upside down and am I going to be a stranger in my own home? Or will it feel like coming home?

Home is where the heart is.

Now I'm going to buy a Hotpot at Berries for lunch for the last time, I guess.

Listening to: KROPP - Ordning

Monday 14 September 2009

close to the end

I had the most wonderful weekend. Last week was kinda slow but it ended with happiness and cake on Friday night, which was my farewell-beer-night. The best farewell-beer-night ever. I had so much fun and I was so drunk and I ate chicken and everything was wonderful.

On Saturday I was asleep until four in the afternoon, then I staggered home from Maria's place and managed to take a shower and eat some microwave lasagna before I fell asleep again, and then on Sunday me and Maria went into town and hung out, I bought a bag, we bought some food, we went back to her place and bleached my hair and had dinner. My hair looks great now, finally managed to make it look pretty even and nice! Thanks Maria! I love it!

Today I'm packing some and tomorrow I'm hanging out with Maria for the last time. There's a very cold little stone in all the shiny happiness, the "leaving your bestest friends"-stone. I'll miss Cork, and everyone, but probably Maria the most.

Listening to: T J Rehmi - Who Killed Bhangra

Friday 11 September 2009

to do list

  • Whatever the **** I want.

Two more weeks and then I'm on the plane with my mom, headed for Stansted.

There's a lot of stuff going on of course, since I'm moving to a new (old) country. Moving is very expensive. Luckily I found a place where I can send boxes for €50/box. Exiting stuff.

But seriously, there's no real news. I'm crocheting a lot. Tonight I'm having a farewell-beer-thing. I'm a bit tired.

Two weeks. Please fly by quickly.

Tuesday 8 September 2009

top 5 signs of stress

So they say that moving is one of the most stressful things you can do. I just moved and I'm moving again in 2 weeks and 3 days. To a new country. A new job. A new life.

So yeah, I'm a bit stressed. I'm happy and stuff, everything is great, but I'm still a bit stressed.

And what is the top 5 signs that Kristina is stressed out? Let me tell you:

  1. Bad skin
  2. Bad skin
  3. Bad skin
  4. Unstable appetite
  5. Bad skin
I've had troubles with my skin since I was like twelve, but the last year or so it's been behaving pretty well. (I actually think it's because of this Boot's cleanser.) But either there's a whole lot of crap in the air in my new house or it's the stress. To make it a bit better I think I lost a couple of kilos though. So I guess that's good. I just hope it will get better when I get to Sweden, with the dryer climate and all.

Listening to: Kaoma - Lambada

Monday 7 September 2009

serious bizznizz

So! I feel that it's time to tell the world!

I have a new job, I'm moving to Sweden in 18 days. I have an apartment and my flight tickets and everything. I have said it before but this is the official post about it.

I have so much to be happy for right now. My life is really awesome.

And I keep on pressing 4.

Wednesday 2 September 2009


So very soon Electric Picnic is starting, and I am not going, and it breaks my heart a little. So extremely many bands that I really love and a festival that seems like it was made for me!

And to make me even more miserable, I'm missing FFF this year. And if anything breaks my heart it's that.

Apart from the heartbreak of missing these two festivals, one that I've never been to and one that I've visited many years and worked with the last two, and love more than I love any other festival, or event at all, I have other thoughts: all the people I grew up with are so old now. They look so different, bigger, more worn. Am I old as well?

Now: time to wash my dinner plate and put my lunch box in the fridge.

Listening to: My Playlist on Spotify
Days left untill I go home: 23

Thursday 27 August 2009


So I did something with my shoulder - while sleeping I guess - and today it hurts so much it almost makes me dizzy. I have no idea what's up with that but if it still hurts tomorrow I'm going to the doctor or something.

Tonight I'm making the best stew ever for myself and Maria, and she promised to help me go through some stuff since I keep everything and I really can't do that. But I did find a place that sends parcels up to 30 kilos for 50 euros. That's pretty good I guess. Gonna have another look around.

The place I'm hopefully moving into has no rooms until thursday, in a week in other words, and I have to be out of the house by monday, so... Hmm. Life is exiting.

My shoulder hurts! Feel sorry for me! If there's any other news I forget it due to PAIN.

Oh yeah I remember! A new favorite web comic, Dovecote Crest!

Listening to: Hedningarna - Gorrlaus

EDIT: This post is dedicated to Hannah, one of the best midgets ever.

Wednesday 26 August 2009


How some feelings all of a sudden feels just like old feelings, and good feelings all of a sudden hurt.

Listening to: Tracy Chapman - Another Sun

Tuesday 25 August 2009

double nerd points

Oh yeah this is awesome! Look!

First, here's a link to a certain XKCD-strip. The message is so true.

Now read this Cracked-article.

Do you get it? It's totally web-flirting right there! This kinda made my day (but not as much as a .bat-file).

Listening to: Still Tracy Chapman - She's Got Her Ticket (I do! I have my ticket! I'm gonna fly away!)

summer cat

You know how some people have a summer house? And how some people would get a kitten to keep over the summer, and then go back to town and leave the cat to die in the forest. Thinking it could take care of itself, which of course it can't.

I remember when I was a kid, in school. I had no friends. There was a couple of girls in my class who had me as a backup. If their real friends wasn't at school they would hang out with me at recess, maybe. If they had nothing better to do. I was small and didn't know anything else, had never had real friends, wasn't offended. Played alone. (Or got beat up, but hey, different story.)

Now, today, I am truly happy. I have a good life, a good job, a future that looks bright and full of... jam. And happiness. But there's this one thing that really bugs me.

I had this friend. We where really close. And now I seem to mean nothing at all. It's weird and I don't know why. It makes me really sad and it feels exactly like I was just a standin. A summer cat.

Anyway. I'm moving to Stockholm. And also I dyed my hair orange today.

Listening to: Tracy Chapman - The Promise

Saturday 22 August 2009

the "twilight is hillarious"-post

So yeah Twilight is a really funny movie. Seriously. I laugh so I cry every time. It spoofs itself. I love it, really, I am a hopeless romantic, kinda chubby girl who likes big strong men (like Jacob) so of course I love the bloody thing! Emotional porn! Yay! I love the books as well, for the same reason. And because they're really exiting, lot's of stuff happens, action, cars, vampires, drama, secrets, everything.

It's like... I like good literature. This is not that. But just because I like a fancy dinner at a nice resturant doesn't mean I don't like pizza, see?

Even better if the pizza is fucking hillarious.

So it's about these people, Bella and Edward. They are both really annoying characters, both in the film and in the books. In the film they are pretty much the only characters, in the books they have a little bit more depth and there's more room for other, more interesting people.

I don't really think the books are as hillarious, it's mostly the film, and almost only because of Robert Pattinson (Edward) and Jackson Rathbone (Jasper). They have the same acting technique: dont breathe, look like you're almost about to shit yourself (or just did) and stare "intensely" at people. They both (just like all the other vampires) wear a lot of makeup as well. And they both have huge hair! Wonderful! Half of all the scenes with Edward his hair doesn't fit into the picture at all and he looks like Johnny Bravo. I almost suspect he might have based his whole character interpretation on Johnny Bravo.

I wish I could find the article with the interview where he said that the books where pretty obviously Stephanie Meyer's own fantasies and that he couldn't stand the character Edward and therefore played his as stiffly as he thought the character deserved. And also that the crazed fangirls made him stop washing his hair to try to get rid of them. Didn't work. Can't find it though, due to Twilight fans grabbing the internet and putting their every though on there. Their every thought is about Edward. Or Robert. They can't seem to keep them apart.

Anyways! My first link to you this evening, dear readers, is that of Buffy vs. Edward! This is a great little video, and it gives you a good look at the mentioned acting technique.

The second one is probably most funny for those who have read the book. This very exactly describes my own, personal picture of Edward and his personality - Growing Up Cullen. This seems to have become a phenomenon, which - to me - proves that there are a lot of fans out there who actually have humor, and probably the same view of the books as I do.


(Oh by the way, this is where the famous line "SHE SMELLED DELICIOUS. LIKE BACON." comes from as well. Edward is such a little bitch.)

Anyway, next in line is this hillarious Cracked-article wich explains all the books very good for anyone who does not want to read them but who wants to know what all the fuss is about, or for people like me, who read the books, and think of them as the hillarious pizza of literature.

("If a guy dumps you and says he doesn't love you anymore, he doesn't mean it. All you have to do is beg and destroy your life to prove that you really love him, and he'll come right back and love you even more!" - We all know this to be true. Also, uhm, yeah, spoilers. If you didn't guess.)

Last of all I'm going to tell you a secret - I actually respect Robert Pattinson. Because holy carp the man can sing. (Try not to look too much at the "video". And try not to listen to closely to the lyrics - or read them in the info. It's a beautful song, really. It's also in the film, in the restaurant scene.)

That's just about all for tonight. I'll round off with my favourite characters in the book - Emmet and Jacob (omygawd I know right, so wierd) and absolutely best looking man in the film - Gil Birmigham (as Billy Black, Jacob's wheel chair-bound father.) Wow! Totally hot! (Yes, I like men who are not eternal seventeen-year-old virgins, thank you very much.)

Note - Pictures are from!

Listening to: My totally Twilight-unrelated spotify playlist of course. Lot of Tom Waits in there right now.


So I have the Swine Flu (please give me this) but I'm still... the happiest person in the world. Can't leave the house untill tuesday. And I'm already tired of being here. Although I am still sick. But still, SO HAPPY.

In other news; Soupy Norman!

Listening to: love songs (and other songs) on my playlist.

Wednesday 19 August 2009


Life is good. Life is so good. Everything is changing and so much is happening but I'm so happy.

Listening to: My Playlist on Spotify

Friday 14 August 2009


I.. I don't understand? How can everything change so quickly? Is it the implant? Is it giving me mood swings? Is that it? 'Cause I just want to cry and everything is terrible and I just can't bear it. And everything was awesome just a couple of days ago!

I don't know what to say, or write, I have so much frustration that I want to get out but I don't know how and I can't really talk to anyone, or I do but it changes nothing.

If I have mood swings at least the "up-swings" are good. But now I'm just depressed.

Listening to: Buraka Som Sistema

Wednesday 12 August 2009

lost faith

I hate it when everything is great and someone turns it around for you. When someone you believe in just keeps on being... unbelievable. When you know that some things are just broken beyond all repair and there's just no reason to keep trying.

Listening to: Kristoffer's rage-playlist.

Tuesday 11 August 2009


Today is tuesday amazingly, feels like... wednesday maybe. Yesterday I was so tired after work I had to have a nap and I didn't make any dinner, had chinese with Joe instead, and watched The Wire at his place, and had a white russian.

Today I went to the gym after work, worked out pretty hard wich felt great and got so much energy! Then I went home and made the best stew ever by simply pouring about a decilitre of Sherry in it. It was awesome. Awesome. I think I might post the recipe at some point.

And when I had finished dinner it was like eight and I had time to clean the upstairs bathroom! Great! And in ten minutes Joe is picking me up and we're going to see Mesrine: Killer Instinct. Seeing the trailer yesterday made me almost frantic ("Oh my god oh my god Vincent Cassel and a lot of guns look at all the guns oh my god I have to see it let's go see it Joe let's see it!") and I've been reading about Vincent Cassel and also his insanely beautiful wife Monica Bellucci all day.

But anyway, today's biggest news is probably not that I got perfume in my eye but that I'll be going to Stockholm for a couple of days next week. Really just a couple of days, but I'm really looking forward to it! Going to see my poor mom before she turns into a pig, gonna hug my crazy cats before they're somebody else's, see some friends before I see them again and that's pretty much all I have time for.

Now: Vincent Cassel and a lot of guns!

Listening to: My Playlist

Sunday 9 August 2009

jeans and happiness and soup

Today has been a most effective and good day. It started with me waking up after a million years of sleep, feeling funny and kind of thick they way you do after too much sleep. After waking I made myself some breakfast - chilli sandwiches - and painted. My latest painting is kinda coming along, looking less bad and strange and more like I have a good feeling of what I want it to look like.

Then I went to the gym with Hannah, which felt good, and then I went to Penneys and bought a pair of jeans, new gym-pants, a belt and a top. (And a hoodie but I'll return it.) I decided the days of feeling big and heavy and draping myself in ill-fitting big clothes to hide all the new kilos are over. Less comfortable, more nice looking. Less sugar, carbs and fat, more vegetables. With this in mind I thought of some food I would like to eat during the week and asked Joe to drive me to Tesco in Wilton which he did without complaining. So now I have three days of food at home and no reason to come home and find nothing to eat but pasta. It's a good thing.

For dinner I'm making a pretty simple cauliflower soup, just because I wanted to use up the cauliflower I had over from the curry I made yesterday. I think I'll post the recipe in my food blog if it's good. With pictures!

No other news from the week, or weekend, exept for my mom having the swine flu. She's not worried and I'm trying not to be either.

And also Spotify wont work since a couple of hours which makes me sad.

But apart from that I's been a good day and a good weekend and a good week and I feel happy.

Listening to: Dr John aka the Night Tripper - I Walk On Guilded Splinters, from the album Gris-Gris, 1968.

Wednesday 5 August 2009


I don't do this very often but since I had a very vivid dream tonight featuring this beautiful song, and because it's storytelling at it's finest, song-lyric-wise, I'll have to share the lyrics with you.

Bobbie Gentry - Ode to Billy Joe

It was the third of June, another sleepy, dusty Delta day
I was out choppin' cotton and my brother was balin' hay
And at dinner time we stopped and walked back to the house to eat
And Mama hollered out the back door "y'all remember to wipe your feet"
And then she said "I got some news this mornin' from Choctaw Ridge"
"Today Billy Joe MacAllister jumped off the Tallahatchie Bridge"

And Papa said to Mama as he passed around the blackeyed peas
"Well, Billy Joe never had a lick of sense, pass the biscuits, please"
"There's five more acres in the lower forty I've got to plow"
And Mama said it was shame about Billy Joe, anyhow
Seems like nothin' ever comes to no good up on Choctaw Ridge
And now Billy Joe MacAllister's jumped off the Tallahatchie Bridge

And Brother said he recollected when he and Tom and Billie Joe
Put a frog down my back at the Carroll County picture show
And wasn't I talkin' to him after church last Sunday night?
"I'll have another piece of apple pie, you know it don't seem right"
"I saw him at the sawmill yesterday on Choctaw Ridge"
"And now you tell me Billie Joe's jumped off the Tallahatchie Bridge"

And Mama said to me "Child, what's happened to your appetite?"
"I've been cookin' all morning and you haven't touched a single bite"
"That nice young preacher, Brother Taylor, dropped by today"
"Said he'd be pleased to have dinner on Sunday, oh, by the way"
"He said he saw a girl that looked a lot like you up on Choctaw Ridge"
"And she and Billy Joe was throwing somethin' off the Tallahatchie Bridge"

A year has come 'n' gone since we heard the news 'bout Billy Joe
And Brother married Becky Thompson, they bought a store in Tupelo
There was a virus going 'round, Papa caught it and he died last Spring
And now Mama doesn't seem to wanna do much of anything
And me, I spend a lot of time pickin' flowers up on Choctaw Ridge

And drop them into the muddy water off the Tallahatchie Bridge

Aw man it gives me goosebumps. And her voice is beautiful and the dream was wonderful and I met old friends and dyed my hair in purple and black and pink using henna.

Today I beat my highscore in Tetris; 335268 points. Back to work.

Monday 3 August 2009


Why have I not mentioned it on my blog? I'm talking about it like, everyday in real life.

I got a sewing machine for my birthday!

Like, best present ever! Thanks!


a plea (and other stuff)

Oh I have been so active today! I was going to go to the gym but as I was trying to convince myself that I really should do the dishes I realized that however good it is to go to the gym, when you would rather do dishes... well, it's not that important. I don't want to take the joy out of it.

So I went home and did all the dishes, sorted the washing, cleaned up my room lots, finished a painting, started a new one that I've been thinking about for ages and listened to Neil Gaiman reading The Graveyard Book for a couple of hours and I love it. And I ate Peking Duck.

If, or when, I leave Ireland I will miss Eva House. I'll have to come back now and then to eat Peking Duck here.

So yeah that brings me to the other point: I am looking for jobs in Sweden and I'm hoping (um, obviously) to move home. At some point. If I can find a job and place to stay. In Ireland you can find a place to rent in an afternoon and move in the next day. I'll miss that too.

And I'll miss how the hairs on Joe's arms are almost invisible untill the sun shines on them and they light up like fiery copper. It's very pretty.

Anyway if any of you Swedish people who say that youre going to visit me actually do, that would be great, because you could do me a huge favour: (and this is the plea) come over and bring stuff back. I have so much stuff. I won't bring it all home but there's so much that I really don't want to leave. I've had a life here for soon two years. That means a lot of stuff. (Of course the same things work for people in Ireland, if you want to come and visit me in Sweden, but you guys are like... three. So yeah, not getting my hopes up there.)

I'll have to leave my very comfortable desk chair, Moses, that I bought in Belfast. I'll miss that. (I once had a cat named Moses, he was huge and black and he would look at you like you where insanely inferior to him. And a little annoying.)

Listening to: My Playlist on Spotify - Everything from The Aposte of Hustle to Howlin' Wolf, aw yeah.

Thursday 30 July 2009

where does the good go?

Oh, I'm okay. Momentarily I get angsty - I am standing at the crossroads, there's this big change right ahead of me, I'm in transit and whatever, but I'm pretty much okay.

I just really miss some people. Most of my friends in Sweden I'm hoping on seeing pretty soon and I know the little pinch of pain when I think of the first couple of months with Joe will feel less painful in a couple of weeks.

I miss Ida.

Otherwise I'm reading the last Harry Potter book, and it's extremely scary and stuff is happening and... stuff. At the moment I'm eating end-of-the-month-dinner; pasta with leftover blue-cheese-sauce that Maria made the other day. Delicious if not a very big dinner.

Listening to: My Playlist - at the moment Leonard Cohen - Who By Fire

Wednesday 29 July 2009


It's sad. It is more sad than I am. The situation. We where a pretty good couple, in my eyes. And of course I am sad as well, 'cause it was real nice, you know? But I think the concept of the couple was probably better than the actual couple, and I knew it wouldn't work, but it's still sad. It's sad because he was such a great guy and it was fun to have a boyfriend and I had fun with him. But then, I think he will be just as great as a friend, and it feels right now as though I wont be very sad in a week. Bit now I am. Now I feel like... Damn. He is so great. I am crazy about him. He is good looking and the sex is great and he has a great taste in music and I have fun with him. Right now all the things that made me realize that this wasn't ment to be feel distant and all his good sides stand out. But I knew that there was an end, and this end was still better than I had hoped, actually, because he was honest and brave and he could talk about it and be open and fair and... Yeah. I guess it's actually the best way it could end.

I still feel wierd about not texting him and not getting texts from him saying sweet things like "I haven't seen you for like two days! I miss you!" or stuff like that. I'll never fall asleep in his arms again, he'll never call me darling again.

I kinda know that the best things about him will still be there. I kinda know we'll be friends. And yeah... It's okay.

It's just that it was so nice, having a boyfriend. Falling asleep in his arms. Waking up when he comes back. I knew it would end. I just hoped it wouldn't be so soon.

It hurts. But not in the same way as heartbreak has felt before, and I'm sad about that too. I am - was - crazy about him but the pain does not make me break down the same way as it did... Before.

Listening to:
My playlist, of course. (Witch ironically plays "Little Bit" by Lykke Li at the moment.)

Saturday 25 July 2009


So I should definitely be cleaning the house but I accidentaly got stuck in front of the computer! Oh no! Who would have thought!?

I started reading my old web-diary. Not blog, web-diary. From before blogging. And man, I was funny and outspoken and honest and deep and verbal in 2003. So much happened that year it's hard to believe! I dropped out of school, drank too much, was too young, moved to Italy, got back, moved to Malmö, moved back to my Mom - again - started working as a blacksmith, met Johnny, one of the funniest boyfriends I ever had, and a thousand other things. The funniest thing about this is that I never wrote about anything that actually happened, I only wrote about my own feelings, all the time. But the present me - back then, the future me - understands what eighteen-year-old-me meant.

This diary was kept for very many years and can be found at Helgon. You do have to be a member though. If you are, and you want to read it, my username there is CookieKitten, of course. Helgon is a community, I have been very active there in my youth but I'm old now and I don't log on very often, just keeping track of a couple of friends who havn't yet actualized the transition to Facebook/blogs/real e-mail.

Okay, I should take a break from reading (and copying to my PC) old diary posts I guess. And get dressed and go do something with my boyfriend.

Listening to: My Playlist at Spotify (got a couple of invites if it's needed!)

Friday 24 July 2009



So yeah we celebrate this special day by filling out another little questionaire, 15-year-old-blogger-style. YEAH!

Finish the sentences

Finish the sentences. Some may be uncomfortable, but you'll manage. Repost it as "Finish the sentences" when you're done!

1. I've come to realize that my last kiss... was a bit rushed.

2. I am listening to... people at work talking.

3. I talk... like a normal person.

4. I love... my family and my cats.

5. My best friend/s... are never far away, even when they are in other countries.

6. My first real kiss... was nice.

7. Love is… retarded.

8. Marriage is... even more retarded.

9. Somewhere, someone is thinking... about new energy sources.

10. I'll always... hate onions.

11. The last time I really cried was... yesterday when I thought about my cats.

12. My mobile phone ring tone is ... catchy.

13. When I wake up in the morning... I might be a bit hungover, and if I'm really lucky my boyfriend will be beside me.

14. Before I go to bed… I should remember to take out my contacts.

15. Right now I am thinking... that I miss my family today, and that my workmates are great, 'cause they give me cake.

16. Babies are... scary.

17. I get on Myspace... never.

18. Today I miss... well, obviously my family, my friends in Sweden, my cats, everyone who isn't here.

19. Tomorrow... I'll have a little party, feel free to pop by!

20. I really want to be... in Sweden at the moment.

21. Someone that will most likely repost this is... no one at all.

There you go, that wasn't so bad was it? I'm so grown up... Boring answers. Sheesh.

Thursday 23 July 2009

just one more day

Woooooo tomorrow I'm 25!

Some last minute tips: I want pretty much anything from this shop.

So I haven't been posting in ages I know. I have been trying but I got a total blogger's block. Blocker. Well. Nothing very interesting has happened but I'll update you on what's been going on anyways:

I have been working, as usual. It's okay.

I am pretty poor this month. I will probably be poor next month too. It sucks. I can't really do stuff.

Joe and I went to see Baby Gramps on sunday. He was a genius. A very old genius.

I saw Harry Potter on sunday as well. The latest movie. It was scary and sad and good.

I put in a contraceptive implant yesterday. It didn't hurt even though the syringe was as big a a pen. Hurts now though.

Sandra comes to cork on sunday and that's like the best thing ever.

I miss Sweden a lot. I miss my cat's. Jupiter needs a new home, maybe I won't ever see him again. This makes me almost cry.

The doctor gave me nasal spray for my snoring. Hope it helps.

So I think that is pretty much it. Tonight me and Hannah are going to see a Swedish movie and eat Swedish pea soup today.

The end.

Wednesday 15 July 2009


Okay you guys seriously you won't believe this this is so cool: I'M GOING TO GET MY NAME IN JOHN DIES AT THE END! For real! Can you even begin to grasp the TOTAL AWESOMENESS? Awesome in the real meaning of the word! I could scream! This is the best! This book will actually for real contain my name, printed in each and every copy! THANKS DAVID WONG!

Check it out! Me and some three hundred other fans get our names printed at the end of the book.

Tuesday 14 July 2009


Imma bloody see ALL THOSE BANDS! At Electric Picnic!

Sunday 5 July 2009


So John Dies At The End (or, well, David Wong I guess) twittered this earlier. It's an article about a six year old girl with scizophrenia. It's quite unsettling and very interesting. (By the way a paper copy of the book John Dies At The End would be a perfect present for me.)

Today I haven't been doing very much. I went to the gym. I had Indian food. I've tidied my room a little but it still looks like shit I'm afraid.

Listening to: My playlist on Spotify.


So people have started asking what I want for my birthday. There's a list in the sidebar there but I'll tell you right here anyways.
  • Electric Picnic tickets
  • debts payed
  • sewing machine
  • a tattoo
  • a nice backgammon board
  • a digital system camera
  • Adobe Photoshop
...or if you don't feel like spending shitloads of money, get me stuff from Lush (like the shampoo Big) or a voucher at Urban Decay or crafty stuff like yarn in beautiful colours or paintbrushes or Sims 3 or a decent gamer mouse or vouchers at Vibes & Scribes or cinema tickets or a nice dinner. (Although I guess a nice backgammon board doesn't have to cost a shitload of money.)

So there's not a lot of news or I would post more often. Joe is still a good guy and he still makes me smile and I like being with him. My last trip to Sweden was, as mentioned, horrible, stressful and sad but I also met some wonderful people who made up for stress and angst. Sandra (Sandy Twotimes), Ida, my baby sister Kajsa and her wonderful mother Ulrika, beautiful Hannah, Kristoffer, and others. You guys are all so rockn'roll and I don't know what I would do without you. (I would deffo fail at moving anyways.)

Yesterday me and Joe went to see Coraline (after like a hundred years I finally got to see it! In an empty theatre no less!) and I LOVED it and he liked it more than he thought he would so that's all win. I want to make little me-dolls now. Then we celebrated the 4th of july with a BBQ in his backyard, with his housemate Danny the American. Good times. Went out after and even though I was drinking from like five in the afternoon untill one at night I never got drunk, just a bit of a headache. Had lot's of fun though, lot's more fun than I usually have when I go out, mainly just because I was in a really good mood. So I would say a very good weekend.

And listen all of you who I invited to come over: I MEAN IT! It looks like it will be a while untill I visit Sweden again, sadly. So here's some advice: if you're flying from the south of Sweden, fly from Copenhagen. Check flights at

So now I think I'll tidy up a bit in my room and then I might drag my ass to the gym.

Listening to: Spotify. Specifically today: Mozart and Jolie Holland.

My mother mentioned that I did not mention Robin in my list of people that I met up with while I was home. She is right of course, he was both fun to meet and a big help - as always. And he let me play with the forge! Robin is awesome and I hope, Robin, that if you read this you did not feel forgotten.

Sorry about that.

Thursday 2 July 2009


So after being home in Sweden for ten horrible and also nice days I am now home in Cork and still feeling stressed out and pretty down.

Down like a fifteen year old emo.

Listening to: Philemon Arthur and the Dung - Femte Hjulet (perfectly describes my mood.)

Thursday 18 June 2009

home, boys, home

So in twenty minutes - at eleven - I leave work and take a cab to the airport, where I will be flying home to Sweden! Woop!

Also I'm in love. In love with a house.

Wednesday 17 June 2009


I want to learn to surf! Ireland has lot's of great surfing beaches and it would be so cool. Until then, I surf the web. Here are a million billion links to things that I find fascinating:

And there is so much more. I od'd a bit on the internet today. Don't really know what happened.

Vacation is tomorrow!!!

Monday 15 June 2009

scary stuff

Olof had a motorcykle accident on saturday and broke a vertebra, or a spinal disk. He's in the hospital now. It's a bit scary and I don't want to think about it.

Personally I had a wonderful weekend with my wonderful boyfriend who constantly makes me very happy. We saw Terminator Salvation and I really liked it and we went for a walk in the sunshine and we hung out and we had tea and we did stuff and it was good.

Now it's pretty late and I should bake a cake and take a shower but I'm tired and slow. At least I had dinner. Spagetti bolognese which wasn't as good as I usually make it for some reason.

And oh yeah, Maria comes back on tuesday, not sunday, that was just wishful thinking.

Listening to: Lot's of stuff, at the moment Stardust by Vince Giordano's Nighthawks but also a lot of Loudon Wainwright III and his daughter Martha Wainwright even though I can't get over the fact that some of Loudon's songs are probably about her, and it makes it a bit strange. I don't listen to Rufus Wainwright though, don't like him, or their mother, who is also a singer, named Kate McGarrigle. Most of all I listen to the record Rouge's Gallery.

Thursday 11 June 2009


Maria left for Sweden today and Olof just left for his new house. Got the house to myself for a few days. In just one week I leave for Sweden as well.

And just one week ago me, Maria, Hannah, Eoghan and Ida (and eventually Joe as well) where having goodbye drinks at Tom Barry's. I haven't had a drink since, which is a pretty long time for me. I mean, I not an alcoholic but I live in Ireland. There is one social venue. The pub.

Joe is at his folks place tonight.

So yeah everyone I know goes away in the end kind of feeling at the moment. I mean, I'm not angsty, Maria comes back on sunday and life is peachy in general and I don't mind being alone one evening (or two, or seven) but I'm in a really lousy mood and today I would have wanted to hang out with someone.

Here is where I would have told you the reason why I'm pissed off but I wont. Ask me if you're interested.

Listening to: Buraka som Sistema on Spotify and WOW I love them.

more wants

Sometimes you just kinda need a designer home.

No girly night, just haircolouring and bleaching. My hair looks less bleached than it usually does.

I got a great idea for my painting for Ida. Might paint it tomorrow.

Listening to: Loudon Wainwright III on Spotify. He is wonderful!

Wednesday 10 June 2009

upcoming events

Okay I'm a bit early but I want this ring for my birthday! Or a tattoo.

Joe cut all his hair off. Lucky for me he is still handsome. Maybe looks a bit more criminal now but I would'nt tell him that.

Hannah dissed the girls night for football. But I can still help Maria pack - she's going to Sweden tomorrow - and maybe paint my own toenails, or something.

I made it to the gym this morning! Love myself.

Tuesday 9 June 2009

liver, zombies, giggle

I actually went down to the English Market today at lunch. Was in a bad mood over not going to the gym this morning but the impressive efficiency I managed to work up during one short little hour made me happier again. I bought liver. Liver is really cheap! So tonight I'm making liver stew for Joe and if he doesn't like it I'll give hime some pie or something. I have a million lunch boxes in the fridge. So no panic.

Here is a little list of films I want to see: Miss Nobody, Tribes of October and I sell the Dead.

And here's a picture of the Man of the Week:

Tahmoh Penikett

The Man of the Week tradition is not back, but I want to make people aware of how hunky he is.

Tomorrow me, Maria and Hannah are possibly having a giggly girly night with pesto chicken, hair colouring and bleaching, maybe some silly movies and maybe some toenail painting. We'll see.

Stay classy!

Monday 8 June 2009

news or something

So I'll be coming to Sweden in ten days - the eighteenth of june. With my boyfriend. (Getting used to the word a bit. Even more, feeling very happy about it. He is amazing. Enough cheesiness!)

Anyways there will be giveaways of stuff, as I have mentioned, and I want to see everyone and get drunk every night and go to the beach and have bbq's and whatnot, but it's mostly gonna be sorting stuff. So yeah, now I've said that.

Bought Pride and Prejudice and Zombies today and now I'm gonna read it.

Working nine to six this week and it's SWEET.

Listening to: Richard Cheese on Spotify.

Friday 5 June 2009


Why am I feeling so low? Like... my heart is made out of led, cold and heavy, and I'm just so sad.

Well, to answer my own question, I think it's lots of different things. Making decicions and changing my mind, being reminded of old pains, being generally confused and forgetful and feeling even worse about it. Feeling scared and powerless and lonely.

Basically none of these feelings make any sence. They don't have anything to do with the reality I live in. If I could just move the black, heavy veil from my eyes I would maybe see reality and feel better but I see everything through a thick layer of pain, misery, regret and confusion.

I have felt worse than this. Most of my life. It's not really so bad. It's just that it's... not real, and I still can't shake the feeling.

Listening to: Robert Pattinson - Never Think (Yes. Robert Pattinson. Looks stupid, acts stiff, sings like a grown man who just lost his whole family in a fire or something. Really good.)

see the world

Note of interest: look up North Korea on the Google map. It's pretty much where the map ends. I mean, we all know this, but it's pretty freaky to just see all the roads, cities, everything just... end. If you look around for a bit you can find cities and fields and stuff, all unlabeled.

It's scary.

Thursday 4 June 2009


On the road again, pretty soon. But I'm just going to Lund. Or it's not so just, but I wont be going anywhere else. And woop! Joe is coming with me for a few days! We'll be arriving in Lund on the eighteenth and we'll be staying in my apartment. It feels great but I think it's gonna feel weird going back with no Ida here. She left today and I was crying most of the morning.

Been keeping busy reading webcomics like Girls with Slingshots and Hark, a Vagrant. I realized that there's a chance I like female comic artists better. I pretty much love comics, and there are lot's of male comic artists on my list of favourites, but the very very best ones often turn out to be women.

And then there's a crazy amount of crap. That's the nice thing about the internets. The crap. The unbelievable amounts of crap. And other stuff. I love finding pearls of niceness in the ocean of random bad and/or boring stuff. Haha.

Well, from the nineteenth this month and about a week forward I'll be giving away stuff, hugs, books, furniture, teacups, cd's, clothes, ducks, more stuff and some other stuff and accepting drinks, hugs and hangouts. You can't have my skiis though. I want to keep them. And a couple of other things. But apart from that, lot's of free stuff for pretty much anyone who shows up and grabs it! Yay! (Also you can spy on my handsome boyfriend.)

Also yeah not really getting used to that concept holy cow boyfriend? Wow. It's scary and awesome but mostly we have lot's and lot's of fun. Like the other day when we went to the beach and I hurt my foot. Uhm. Crappy anecdote yeah but it was a really good day. My foot still hurts.

Yeah scary stuff, boyfriends.

Listening to: Rachid Taha - Ida (by coincidence!)

Wednesday 3 June 2009

everybody look at me

Seriously I think this is so funny. Check out Lonely Island on Youtube or Spotify or something. Andy Samberg is a genius. (I appologize for the little lyrics-window, couldn't help myself.)

Listening to: Guess.

Friday 29 May 2009


Okay seriously the more I read about dogs - more particularly English Bull Terriers - the more I want one. I love the intelligent look in their eyes, the beautiful colourings, and I think they look so handsome. I mean it. I know that they are difficult dogs but when I'm older, and if I ever move out to the countryside, and... stop working because I'm a millionaire or something, then I'll buy a English Bull Terrier and give it all the exercise and attention and special food it ever could need.

Picture is from Wikipedia.

I want a black one though, or cream. Or mix. Or any kind, they are so pretty!

Listening to: Roxy Music - Avalon (I think it's time to clean up my playlist.)

Thursday 28 May 2009

totally gay

Been reading some about Moomin, as in the gay icon. Or maybe the gay icon Tove Jansson. Read this very interesting article on the subject (it's in Swedish though). I've know for ages about Tove Jansson being gay (and also an anarchist) and the character Tooticky being based on her partner Tuulikki Pietilä, but she is one of my favourite authors and always interesting.

So thing of the day is:
  • All of Tove Jansson's books. I read some of her adult books and I love them, and I would love to read all of them, and I would love to read all of them repeatedly.
  • The Arabia Moomin-mugs (and bowls), specifically Tooticky and "Thingumy and Bob" as Tofslan and Vifslan is mysteriously translated to (Tofslan is Tove and Vifslan is a girlfriend - not Tuulikki but Viveca Bandel), Moominpappan (Moomindad) and last but not least Snufkin - Snusmumriken.

Ah yes. I have also been spending a lot of time looking at pictures of small, cute, yappy-type dogs. The cuteness. It devours.

Oh well, back to work.

Wednesday 27 May 2009

what I know and what I believe

I had a kinda shitty day today, in ways. I look a bit like Hulk Hogan from a kinda maybe not supergreat dye last night (redoing it in a couple of days though) and woke up when I was supposed to leave with a mad throatache. Everything went wrong all morning.

But work was extremely slow so I survived. Went to buy some food after and went home to cook it. Unfortunately I kinda failed the cooking! Me! The food wizard! Yes. Too bad. Shit happens. Joe smiled and said "It tasted great darling" and I don't believe him for a second but I do appreciate it and I like it so when he calls me darling.

At the same time this double feeling. Right underneath the happiness, worry, anger, sadness. Feels shitty.But I'll get over it, because I don't want this weight. I don't want that again. But the memory is clear as daylight, the memory of the pain. The anger is close. 

But I won't get angry. I'm unforgiving this once but I don't want to fall back into that darkness. Let you forget... Sure. Whatever. I'll forget.

Maybe I should forgive? For my own sanity's sake? Or maybe I should just try to not think about it? Because the more I do the angrier I become. Don't want that, don't need that, not now, not ever.

So how about I do the dishes now?

Listening to: Lykke Li - I'm Good, I'm Gone (spotify)

Tuesday 26 May 2009


I admit it, it's a bit... unhealthy, how many t-shirts I have, and how many more I am likely to purchase. Here is the t-shirt of the day. I love zombies, t-shirts and A Softer World so this tee is so totally made for me. Wow.

The project of my hair is going good! Going to bleach it big time today. Hoping for white, but it's probably going to be more yellow. I'm having dinner with Ida as well. I did yesterday too. And Johan, we had indian, at Indian Palace, and I think it's my favourite indian place so far actually. Then we watched In Bruges which is so good I could cry. Smart, funny, beautiful... it has everything a movie needs and if it was a person I would fall in love and elope with it. It's like the perfect film. Really. I loved it the first time I saw it about a year ago, but I loved it even more the second time. Think I'll see it again, soon.

Wasting my lunchbreak now... But since I'm working the early shift I'm not really hungry yet, and also I have no lunch and no cash on me, so getting food would require more effort than it's worth. I'll grab a sandwich later or something.

Listening to: Philemon Arthur and the Dung - Men Va Fanken

Sunday 24 May 2009


Someone who hurt me a lot apologized today. I did'nt forgive him but still. Big surprise really. I'll never ever trust him again and I honestly don't want him in my life, but I do appreciate that he apologized.

More relevant to your interests: I'm going to Electric Picnic with Tall&Handsome (or Joe as I call him in reality) in august. We had a great weekend - on saturday he came over and mocked me a bit for being so hungover and gave me hugs and we watched Mighty Boosh, and then we went out for a walk in the sunshine, and had lunch at Quay Co-op. On saturday night we had a big work dinner with SHC, my old department that closed down. I had great pizza at Milano, we went to Crane Lane and had lot's of fun and met lot's of fun people and it was great. Lot's of fun and dancing and wooo, and Joe came there with his friend, and we had fun.

Today we went for a long long walk (and I was'nt hungover at all! Miraculous!) and we had hamburgers at Eddie Rockets.

The sun has been shining madly and I even got a little color! (In my case the color is pink and it's gone by tomorrow but still.)

I finished cutting my hair and I'm very happy with my short result. I'll try to upload a picture some time soon. Also I just paid for Spotify, so Dad - I got your invite now, if you still want it. 

Listening to: Maskinen - not on Spotify, because it's lagging so much it's impossible to use. Great. Well, it might get better, or I'll unsubscribe, or I just have to let the songs load before I listen to them... For about twice as long as it actually takes to play them. Crap.

Saturday 23 May 2009

good times

Theres this game. You're supposed to bluff. The whole game is about putting a card on the table, face down, and say that is is a certain card, and if the opponent does not believe you he or she can look at the card. And if you where bluffing you have to drink. And if it's true the opponent drinks.

Now Tall&Handsome grew up playing poker. I did'nt. He masters the art of the pokerface. I master the art of getting shitfaced. 

Playing this game against someone who has the pokerface of kings might be a bad idea. We finished one and a half bottle of disgusting liqourish vodka.

My head hurts.

Listening to: Buena Vista Social Club - Chan Chan

Tuesday 19 May 2009

holy crap

This is so extremely scary. It's going to give me nightmares. Insects and zombies. Both really scary. Thanks

In other news I painted a painting for Sandra M today. I finish abstracts way quicker than non-abstracts. Also I loose track of time and all of a sudden it's really late. So no more writing now.

Listening to: Philemon Arthur and the Dung - Den Sista Veckan

Thursday 14 May 2009

still got so very far to go

I get so mad at myself when I'm late for work. I'm going to start waking up an hour earlier. Really. From now on. So yeah, that's five o'clock. In the morning.

But I'm not going to be late anymore.

I had a really bad day today, but then I took a walk with Hannah at lunch and talked a lot about everything that made me mad and now I feel a lot better. That's a great thing. That I can talk about stuff and then feel better about them. I'm happy about that.

So me and Tall&Handsome cancelled the Dingle-plans, we're going to the film festival instead. It seems great! Yay!

Been scribbling a lot, trying to come up with some kind of childrens book character. So far i think I could call that book "stranger danger" 'cause all of the characters I draw look bloody scary.

If I had a scanner I would scan them for the world to see. Yes indeed.

Back to work.

Wednesday 13 May 2009

better, better, better

I worked today and it was alright. Fell asleep the moment i came home. Woke up after a couple of hours, vacuumed, made some not great food. Spent a couple of hours chillin, talking to mom, talking to Sandra, talking to Tall&Handsome over the phone about our trip this weekend, booking bnb, deleting stuff from my mp3-player, watched youtube-videos, read stuff, ate the not so great food, blah blah. I'm in a generally good mood. I won over the flu, I survived work, I'm going away with Tall&Handsome this weekend. Good stuff.

He got double points yesterday for dropping by and watching a movie with me. Men of the world: you think your flu's are horrible, but so are ours! We might not need taking care of (I don't anyways... Not from any guy. Maria takes care of me.) but company and hugs are allways appreciated.

Well, we're going to Dingle, or to a short film festival, if we can get tickets. Seems like the weather will be a bit crappy so it might be a good idea.

Damn... Now it's almost ten o'clock. To late to wash the floors. I'll have to do it tomorrow. Damn.

Listening to: Laleh. Like four or five tracks on repeat. *love*

Monday 11 May 2009

in bed

Left work after sneezing so much I couldn't concentrate on the calls anymore... Also feeling a bit feverish and dizzy. And yeah, generally cold. 

Just saw the season finale of Dollhouse and man do I wish they'll make a second season! Yesterday I saw Star Trek with Tall&Handsome and it was great! Totally loved it! Spent the evening with Ida watching Good Will Hunting... And today I am, as mentioned, home, in bed, with lemsip.

Should try to make myself some lunch.

Listening to: Beck - Everybody's gotta learn sometimes

Sunday 10 May 2009

in the land of faraway

Wow, dad, of all the things to focus on in that last post... I still can't invite anyone to Spotify. Further I can't even use it anymore. Just buy it if you want it.

So the weekend has been interesting and fun! Amalie is allways great to hang out with. 

Listening to: Leonard Cohen

Tuesday 5 May 2009

a man

Oh I don't remember feeling this good about feeling romantic feelings in years. It's fun. Tall and Handsome really seems like a good guy. Good stuff. 

Amalie is coming here in a few days and I'm looking forward to that so much. Friday is the last day that SHC is taking calls and we're all going out that night. I bought a new dress.

I had lot's of stuff in mind that I was going to write but now I'm really tired so I wont. But I'll tell you one thing before falling asleep: I am now reachable at my Swedish number as well as my Irish one. Aint that something.

Listening to: Zoro, the Spotify find of the day. 

Monday 27 April 2009


Oh well. Alls well that ends well. Wishing well. Whatever. I don't really care anymore. I'm okay. My life is good. One year today and I finally don't care anymore. Everything is perhaps not peachy and perfect but it's good, I'm doing good. At least at the moment. I'm okay. My life is not circling around a big lie anymore. I think I know what I want and where I'm going and when I don't know that just makes it more fun.

So tomorrow it looks like I'm seeing tall and handsome again and that's great. He's making pie. (Pie! It's like he knows me! Haha!) And on thursday it's Valborg. (And also the day of THOR, the norse god.) So we - the vikings (or well, the scando's that is) are going out to rape and pillage (or just play pool and have a couple  of drinks). We'll see how that turns out. 

Listening to: Nothing at the moment but I watched a few episodes of The Big Bang Theory, season two earlier. 

Sunday 26 April 2009


So I've been on a two week vacation and I havn't felt like writing but things are slowing down now and feeling... good. 

Sweden was good. It was warm and sunny and springtime and it felt really good. I met my great grandmother who is just about the coolest person even and found out a lot about my family. I met my sisters and one of my brothers, I met a lot of wonderful friends, spent a few days relaxing at my moms place. 

And then I came back to Cork and I've pretty much been working all week and on friday I went out with Ida and Maria, and I met a very nice guy, and I finally got that dinner and a movie. 

So at the moment I'm in a very good mood.

Listening to: Lykke Li @ Spotify

Monday 30 March 2009


So a guy at work sent me a link to this video. "Heh" I thought. Then I found a large number of other videos. I saw the original years ago and laughed until I cried but I had no idea that there were so many other versions! (Both good and bad.)

tab shopping

As opposed to window shopping. Of all the things I found today most have just inspired me to make things of my own (I'll die if I don't invest in a sawing machine soon!) but I totally fell in love with this sweet candleholder!

Five more days untill I go back to Sweden for a well deserved two week vacation.

Of course I mean sewing machine. Not for cutting down trees, for creating clothes and such. Thanks dad.

Monday 23 March 2009

zombies and colors

So I came home from work and I was going to vacuum and clean the upstairs bathroom but instead I fell asleep instantly and slept untill eight thirty or something. Now my head feels heavy and feel a bit stupid.

Dreamed about the zombie invasion, again. I stopped reading about zombies, stopped thinking about it, stopped beeing a zombie-geek in general but I still have terrible nightmares. This time I had to take care or an orphan, a small baby. I was best suited for this for some reason. We were a small group hiding in some kind of towers, and underground. We had a system of always leaving one person behind if the zombies caught up with us. There was some kind of confusion, consisting of me trying to get back to some place where I had my colors. I was all of a sudden in my room, throwing all my colors and paintbrushes and papers and as much as I could possibly grab into my backpack (yeah... my ICE-bag). At the same time holding a baby and being panicked and it was me and some guy who got left behind and there was something with a boat and I woke up covered in sweat feeling like shit.

So I made fish soup with tomato, carrots, broccoli, bean, lentils, saffron, creme fraiche, orange, chilli and garlic. The soup is great but I have no idea what happened with the fish. Tastes... just bad. 

And I'm watching Dragon Hunters which so far might be the most awesome animated movie I have seen in a very long time. This was what computer animated graphics was supposed to do! Erratic gravity! Dragons! Awesomeness!

Apart from that it's eleven pm and it feels like... it feels just strange. I've been sleeping for hours. It's probably because I woke up last night and couldn't go back to sleep so I've been very tired all day. But I'm completely thrown off balance.

Listening to: Three 6 Mafia.


There's a fork in the road, up ahead
I'm not there yet but I'm getting closer

The fork used to look different.
None of these roads are yellow, none in a forest.

One road is straight, broad
the other I cannot see but I know it's there

It used to be different. Used to be three roads, one clearly visible, the two others not.

Now, since I seem to have made a choise
I kept to one road, left the other ones behind
everything looks different.
I'm still on the same road but the landscape changed
around me it's spring
ahead I cannot see.

So how can I choose?
I know now that the choise I will make - the choise I have to make
will be
of utmost importance.

How can I know which road to take?

The one less traveled is not really an option
nor am I at the middle of my life's road.

Nor am I in a forest, lost.

I have two roads ahead. One leads on
the other, I cannot see

But wherever I choose to go I have been before
and yet never ever seen.

Both lead to mountains,
both mountains, when the top is reached, give me a splendid view
If I can get there.

There is a fork, ahead.

Sunday 22 March 2009

my room

My dad asked me to take some pictures of my house. So here's some pictures of my room!

bag art

Sara, do you recognize your old bag?

the wall

So here's a link to the album with my kitchen wall spring decorations. Enjoy!

Listening to: Scary sounds from Bioshock.


                                       Like... If the sun was really not a morning person. Maybe.

              So yeah this one is really hard to photograph since it's in silver and stuff.

Listening to: Danish boys muttering about CS.

Thursday 19 March 2009

person of the week

Awlrite! This week gets a person.

Jodie Foster. She recently came out and that is so cool. So GO Jodie! She lives with her girlfriend of fourteen years and their two sons. I just wanted to note this since I think she's absolutely awesome, beautiful, and a fantastic actress.

In other news my tickets for Sweden are all booked and rebooked and finally everything is as it should and I'm going back to that place that I might call home maybe, in just a couple of weeks! Feels good. Going to try to see everyone I know in two weeks. I will fail but I really want to.

I have plans of purchasing an MP3-player. So... That's pretty intresting. For me. And also... time flies by and I have no idea what's going on and as the days grow longer and daylight actually is something I experience on a regular basis I still seem to have less and less time for anything. Like blogging, which might be noticable.

Well. Gotta work some.

Listening to: The ramblings of Johan mostly.

*EDIT - When I say recently I actually mean a couple of years ago. Haha. I'm totally slow. Go Jodie either way.

Saturday 14 March 2009

back to life

So I've been twittering a lot, instead of blogging, since I haven't had much to say that needed the use of more than 140 characters. I like Twitter. It's fun, and it's a brilliant idea. 

In other news I really want a pair of Ray-Bans. (Yes the video is thuroughly disturbing but as eighties songs go the song is alright. Well, if you ignore the lyrics that don't really make sence,unless Corey Hart is insane. Still, he has very cool sunglasses. And pretty cool red shoes too. And the girl that for some reason sits in a corridor stamping paper like her life depended on it has very cool sunglasses as well, and a cute hairstyle!)

Me and a random spanish dude switched glasses late at night outside a pub.

Last night I went down to Shelbourne for a while after first going home and having chinese and painting. Today I'm going to go down to the city to buy some coloured paper and a pyjama top. And tonigt I'm probably gonna go for a beer or so with Eva and then head over to Ida's for some hanging out wit her, Liz and Karolin. 

Best thing right now is that I'm painting a lot and it makes me happy. I forget about everything in the whole world and time flyes by and its great. Just wish canvas was cheaper.

Listening to: Sixteen Horsepower - La Robe A Parasol (it's in french!)