keeping secrets

Sometimes I just can't let go, like, I get a thought in my head and I can't stop repeating it, going over it from every angle, kinda... obsessing. I hate it. I hate myself when I can't just let go. I really try not to think about it, but it comes creeping into my mind as soon as I let my guard down.

I think I need a creative outlet. And I need to start working out. I'm going to start with capoeira again. And maybe start running. If I only could find a sportbra that would fit me... I've put on some kilos since I came here.

If I want to have any hope of getting into anyone else's pants I think I should make sure I get into my own first.

SEX

På radion sa dom alldeles nyss att klamydian ökar. Och inte bara klamydia, utan även syfilis. Jag ska aldrig mer ha sex.

Försovit mig idag. Hade mycket att göra. Hann inte. Dåligt. Seg.

Terapi idag.



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