Fffff this

My good feeling is gone today. I feel tired and sad and everything is difficult and meaningless. I don't have the energy to fight.

But I have to. Tomorrow is the first day of the first week of the new year. Kind of. I have to go and do stuff with papers and stuff and it's so difficult and horrible. I don't want to. I have bills to try and get money to pay and a ton of paperwork to take care of and I DON'T WANT TO. I don't have any energy for it. I want to go to sleep tonight and never ever wake up again. I'm a miserable failure. I hate myself. I hate my life. I don't even have a good reason to hate it, even when it's difficult I have friends who care about me and stuff but it doesn't matter, I hate it anyway. Everything is meaningless.