I feel really silly! And so happy that I'm hardly touching the ground when I walk.
Not so much panic right now. I don't really have time any more.
We're going to Tone for dinner and then we're going dancing! After that I'll have to finish packing and pay my bills and fix my hair and take a shower and go to sleep. And in the morning I'm going to the train and then it's just an hours wait at the airport.
And then. Then.
I can't really think about the rest.
Showing posts with label nerves. Show all posts
Showing posts with label nerves. Show all posts
Wednesday, 6 March 2013
Tuesday, 5 March 2013
two. TWO!!
Sweet baby buddha made of candy. The nerves are NOT calming down. Not even a little.
I have been feeling extremely ugly the last few days, don't know what that is about, normally I think I look pretty nice.
My creativity has some kind of cramp and I have a bit of nausea even. Jeez.
Still I don't feel worried. What's the deal? Why am I so nervous?
Every time we talk my nerves calm right down and I'm just happy to see him. So hopefully that will happen when he gets here.
Until then I need to pack a weekend bag, do some laundry, maybe epilate my legs again (there's a reason for doing it twice! I promise!), finish a shitload of work, bleach my sidecut, move my skis to somewhere where they're not in the way... aaaand I guess that's it? Not sit and hyperventilate constantly?
And oh yeah. I might have bought a new phone last night. I blame the nerves!
Listening to: My Spotify starred list which has a lot of Buraka Som Sistema on it.
Working on: Making paper and clay models of a ring that I'm going to make. And sketches of it. A wedding gift. A large shawl. Metal fake nails.
I have been feeling extremely ugly the last few days, don't know what that is about, normally I think I look pretty nice.
My creativity has some kind of cramp and I have a bit of nausea even. Jeez.
Still I don't feel worried. What's the deal? Why am I so nervous?
Every time we talk my nerves calm right down and I'm just happy to see him. So hopefully that will happen when he gets here.
Until then I need to pack a weekend bag, do some laundry, maybe epilate my legs again (there's a reason for doing it twice! I promise!), finish a shitload of work, bleach my sidecut, move my skis to somewhere where they're not in the way... aaaand I guess that's it? Not sit and hyperventilate constantly?
And oh yeah. I might have bought a new phone last night. I blame the nerves!
Listening to: My Spotify starred list which has a lot of Buraka Som Sistema on it.
Working on: Making paper and clay models of a ring that I'm going to make. And sketches of it. A wedding gift. A large shawl. Metal fake nails.
Monday, 4 March 2013
THREE!!!1!!
OKAY I'M SO FUCKING NERVOUS NOW IT'S CRAZY I'm getting fucking bad skin from being so nervous. My heart is beating like its trying to break out of my chest and I feel like I'm drunk or suffocating. I was not even remotely prepared to feel like this. All if a sudden nothing feels right, I have absolutely nothing to wear, my room looks HORRIBLE, every idea I have is stupid and ... Augh.
At the same time I don't THINK that there's anything to be nervous about. That does not seem to make a difference though.
At the same time I don't THINK that there's anything to be nervous about. That does not seem to make a difference though.
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