The line is from a song by the National and it plays over and over again in my head. Don't know why but it's better than wham so whatever.
I'm tired again. Tired of myself, my life. I despise myself.
Soon three weeks since I got out of the hospital and everything is so difficult. Everything.
I don't want anything. I don't want my life. I hate myself.
I'm in bed. I should sleep.